The songs I have written in Ache Higher explore land metaphors, truths, and fictions as embodied destinations: vanishing point; disappearance; the end of our assimilation; the end of conquest. It is weaving my love of Sondheim with original music, quotations and commentary. This is where I am in 2020, and I will continue to move. The album was created in close conversation and kinship with artist Hadar Ahuvia, who contributed lyrics to the song "Vanishing Point."
In the snowy woods of Saratoga Springs I was finally able to read the play Green Grows the Lilacs by turn-of-the-century Cherokee playwright Lynn Riggs, on which the musical Oklahoma! was based. Like Rodgers & Hammerstein, my ancestors were European Jews who settled in New York City. My grandparents were Broadway producers--I grew up regarding the tuneful stories of the Broadway stage as personal folklore. As I read Rigg's original play, set in Indian Territory not yet Oklahoma, I sat with histories of land theft, genocide and the mythologizing of an American frontier (and psychological interior), which my ancestors took part in constructing, through body and voice.
My first night there was a blizzard. Tree branches cracked and fell under the weight of the snow. On my cold afternoon walks I noticed how the ice protects the ground, and life beneath it. My studio had a piano. There I wept unexpected tears I didn't know I had--for my childhood instrument, for my formal education at Oberlin Conservatory, where I was discouraged from composing at instruments in favor of directly on paper. This disconnect between musical expression and my body is a wound I have been gently nursing, healing, and reconciling through movement, breath, body and voice. It led me here.
Special citations:
"Vanishing Point" chorus lyrics co-authored with Hadar Ahuvia
"Sondheim Structure Savior" contains melodic and lyric quotations from Stephen Sondheim's "Opening Doors" from Merrily We Roll Along. The lyric 'it's not a tune you can hum' also appears in "The Land Is Frozen."
"I Judged You" is a requiem and an apology to Sigmund Freud. His assimilation is partly what led him to ignore the magnitude of antisemitism in Vienna in the 1940s, despite the warning signs. He died shortly after being airlifted out of Austria. I imagine his grief had he lived to learn his sisters would die in the concentration camps. As I work to undo my own assimilation and confront my Whiteness, I find myself rejecting a victim narrative that has too often been weaponized--but is also a pathway toward empathy and allyship.
"Over My Dear Body" contains lyric references to Stephen Sondheim's "Children Will Listen," the finale from Into The Woods. This was my favorite musical growing up. While at Yaddo I learned that it was based on Bruno Bettelheim's Freudian analysis of European fairy tales. Both my parents are psychotherapists.
There is also a lyric reference to the civil rights era song "Oh, Freedom" popularized by singer Odetta.
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released February 23, 2020
Recorded by Tatyana Tenenbaum at Yaddo in Saratoga Springs, NY. 2020
Tatyana Tenenbaum’s interdisciplinary work has been described as “rich polyphony” (The New Yorker) and “transcending the
fraught history between utterance and stance through an exacting inquiry” (Critical Correspondence). She creates and organizes in conversation with personal lineage and broader artistic community; in dance, performance and embodied vocal research....more
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